Today I’m choosing to stay in with my bed, no side dishes, no dessert. The fact that it is raining like hell, might change my mood from being neutral to “too lazy to speak”. So I made a quick imaginary what to do list in my mind and settled things out. Everything perfect until almost all of my friends started typing me to go out, invites coming out like almost simultaneously and to be honest wish I could be in an adecvate mood to just put a dress on and shine like the moon, but sometimes even that pretty moon has its antisocial days and nights, like at least once a month (let it be twice). So because having a shitty mood, as a normal person you try to explain them that you are not in the mood to go out. First you think : “Okay, I might try to be in the mood”, you try your best for your friends sake ! But guess what ? Your mood is still freaked up ! No matter how much you would try, you just can make it straight, even if gold would fall out of the sky (that would be nice tho, but no, still to lazy to get up and go out in that dirty rain).
*8 a.m. – the alarm is ringing through my sour dream.*
Waking up in a roller coaster. I’m up here in my little black outfit, black pumps and my J. Lennon sunglasses. After I’ll finish my coffee, I’ll be ready for another ride.
Why are you hanging out there ? I see you abandon the field, afraid to risk, afraid to not get hurt. Afraid to not die. I saw you creeping around, maybe you’re playing hide and seek, maybe you want to run away like a coward … Do you like the winter ? I love coldness, white, snow. Winter is my boyfriend, but I’m in an love affair with the summer. When my soul is frozen, summer will embrace me.
31/12/2014, 4 a.m. – writing messages and playing my favorite stalking game, it should be the last one because I’m bored.
“Make a New Year’s resolution !”, they said. Well, let’s see, it should sound like this :
 I want snow
 I want to visit a new country, maybe Norway
 I want more money (who doesn’t ?)
 I want to read tons of books
 I want to write more
 I want to draw more
 I want to make more artwork
 I want to be more creative and inspired
But I’m not sure that this resolution helps, for the record those are just some words. “Oh but it will be fun, you’ll see.”, they said. Anyway I’ll do whatever I’ll feel like, I don’t necessary need a list for that. I’m sure that at least 80% of you out there reading this made a New Year’s resolution. I wonder, does it help you to keep it balanced ?
I think I just fell asleep, it’s 2 p.m. and still 2014. Maybe I really should clarify my goals for the next year ! Or … Maybe not. What am I a robot ? I don’t need an encrypted information inside of me to remind me every day which are my life goals. That’s hilarious.
It’s almost 12 a.m., alone in a corner, for the last 10 minutes. People are downstairs having fun, but I choose to smoke a cigarette on a song and dance smoothly to it and the cigarette is tastier than ever. Sometimes is so comfy to be alone there for a bit, just you and your thoughts. But next I wake up dragged into the crowd with tons of “happy New Year”. Guess they made some New Year’s resolutions.
Song of the day :
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